Do you know I love you?

If not you should. :)
Thank you all for giving me the space to just be unfeeling and upset with out judgment.
I can not tell you how much it has helped.

I think the reason I had such a hard time is that I have been judging myself... as if I should not be having these issues after seeing what I did.

I just started my physical care.
I got my first release massage tonight and my body feels better.
I have not been this grounded in weeks.

Tomorrow, after work, I am going to get a hold of Gary and see what I can schedule with him.

I have a friend who , in the middle of all the chaos, saw the accident as well and is willing to go with me to the spot to staple our letters to Kari ( the victim) to the tree.


I .. just.. feel... Ahhhhhhhhh .. a huge sigh of relief.

Thank you all. :)